3  The initial mental state

"The spirit itself doesn't know what the spirit is."
Cicero, Roman philosopher (106 - 43 B.C.)

The human spirit is the living unit. By descending into the body, the spirit connects itself with the contrary of itself, the matter that doesn't live. Because of that, the spirit here cannot be itself and gets unknowingly in a mental state of narrowed consciousness. That's why the spirit becomes unconscious of the existence of itself as being a spirit. This is the cause that the spirit here unconsciously identifies itself with body and environment and therefore thinks ... this is all there is.

3.1 The initial mental state: unconscious identification
The spiritual development to self-realization and reunification begins from an opposite state, which is the initial state, the state of youth. This is a state of unconscious identification with this physical, temporary existence.
There is nothing in this physical existence that lets you become aware of yourself as being a spirit. By that unconsciousness of yourself, your attention and devotion are pulled out by the overwhelming sensory impressions that reach you from the outside world. As a result, your attention and dedication all go out in the outside world. You transfer yourself, as it were, to the outside world - the self-transfer - without realizing this.
Unconsciously you identify yourself with your surroundings. Thus, notwithstanding you are the human spirit, you still feel one with this physical existence and thus you think that the material world is the only thing there is.

3.2 Therefore the question: "Who am I?"
By this unconscious identification with what you yourself, as being the spirit, are not, values are reversed. Thereby the value of the physical is raised above the spiritual. As a result, you are most interested in the physical and temporal, while you ignore yourself as being the spirit, the essential and eternal ... without being aware of this situation!
By identifying with this physical existence, you also only see this existence and the spiritual reality remains hidden for you; but as a result you only see one half of reality - with all its consequences for your assessment of the meaning and value of this physical existence.
By identifying with this physical existence you also have to believe that God and God's angels exist, because you can not know for sure here - except if it is shown to you.
This unconscious identification with the physical, with what you yourself, as being the spirit, are not, is therefore the core question of yourself as being a human spirit. It is only because of this, that at a given moment you can ask yourself the question: "Who am I really?"
If by the recognizing of the activity of your spiritual abilities you have recognized yourself as being a spirit - "I as being the spirit, am the one who thinks this thought within myself!" - than you have found the answer to that question!

3.3 The uncontrolled activity
How do the abilities and thus personality look like in this state of unconscious identification? In this state you are not yet fully aware of all your abilities and therefore you do not fully control them.
Because of the uncontrollability of your perception, your attention can be fascinated by the sensations that come to you through your senses, whereby you surrender to them and let them guide you.
Because of the uncontrollability of thinking you can be fascinated by the inner representations, which are evoked by those sensory perceptions, causing the series of uncontrolled thoughts, the endless fantasies, the musing, the daydreams.
Because of the uncontrollability of feeling, your mood can also be determined by those sensations and perceptions and can be expressed as a disorder of mood, as an uncontrolled state of mind, as emotion
Because of the uncontrollability of wanting, your willpower can be determined by sensations, ideas and emotions, disorders of mood and expressed as impulses, as uncontrolled behavior.

3.4 Chained and driven
For example, if you see something that you have pleasant experiences with and what has to do with a certain custom of satisfaction - for example you see the cookie jar on the table to mention something innocent - then after the sensation of it, the image of immediate satisfaction comes to you.
At the same time, an emotion develops in the form of the desire to satisfy that need, which is followed by the urge to do so immediately; and before you are aware of it you've got a grip in the drum.

In this initial mental state the abilities can be in a state of more or less uncontrolled activity, where you are fascinated by sensations and perceptions, and are driven by emotions and impulses. This is in contrast to the state of controlled activity, in which you consciously and intelligently perceive things, think about them and feel them through, and then deliberately decide to do something with them.
It is therefore always about the four abilities, only the way in which they are expressed in your behavior - and therefore in your personality - is different, namely: controlled or uncontrolled.

3.5 The conscious identification: attachment
The state of unconscious identification that has now been discussed is more a general initial state. It is a general and pre-existing state of mind with which every person, without realizing it, begins this existence.
In some areas of your existence this can grow into a state of conscious identification with certain people, things, objects or with the physiological working of certain substances. This conscious identification is the attachment. Attachment is a mental state in which you have been so absorbed in some matters that they have, in fact, become the boss of you. Whether you want it or not, you have to consciously strive for the satisfaction of certain desires. You already know it, but you do not control it (yet).

3.6 The self-centeredness: selfishness
What do the spiritual abilities look like in this condition? By attachment to certain sensory perceptions, your perception is linked to an often compulsive desire to do so. That desire is accompanied by the imperative need to possess those things, substances or circumstances that can satisfy that desire. In other words, by attachment to the senses, the perception can be characterized by sensuality, addiction and greed.
By attachment to the knowledge in your memory and the ideas in your inner world, thinking can be characterized by conceit, by stubbornness and mania for organization.
By attachment to the sense of self, feeling can be expressed as self-love, as pride and ambition.
By attachment to your decisions of will your behavior is characterized by willing to act. But by identifying with others also: wanting others to act according to your decisions. In other words, by attachment to your decisions, willpower can be characterized by the urge to act and thirst for power.

In the attached metal state, the activity of your abilities is directed primarily on yourself. This self-centeredness, which aims to put yourself at the center, is selfishness. As a result of selfishness you not only close yourself off for your fellow human beings, but to the same degree also for your divine, spiritual origin.

3.7 The one-sided identification
The unconscious identification and attachment are more outwardly directed. But within yourself, a one-sided development of one of your abilities can arise from your personality building, with which you also can identify yourself. This creates the one-sided identification.
Because the opposite ability remains more or less undeveloped (thinking is the opposite of feeling, wanting to perceive), a one-sidedness arises in your personality. This one-sidedness is the cause of imbalances in your personality and of deficient adaptation in those areas of existence that have to do with the undeveloped ability.
By one-sidedness of your perception you are directed to gaining pleasant experiences; but as a result, your willpower can remain undeveloped, making you easy-going;
by one-sidedness of thinking you are characterized by professionalism and rationality; but because the feeling has remained undeveloped you can, in dealing with your fellow human beings, behave insensibly;
by one-sidedness of feeling you are correctly adjusted to a personal feeling bond with your fellow human beings; but because you miss the inner security of thinking you can become dependent on them;
and by one-sidedness of willpower you are directed to act and to enterprise; but because of this you can lack the sense for the reality of the perception, making you short-sighted.

3.8 The separateness of the origin
By this initial mental state of unconscious identification with what you are not and by the associated attachments and one-sidedness, man is not himself in his original, spiritual nature. In this initial state you can use the spiritual abilities in an uncontrolled, selfish and one-sided way, which is reflected in your behavior. That is the cause of the disturbance of the bond with our fellow men and of all the senseless suffering that we do to each other and ourselves.
It is also because of this initial mental state that your aspiration for spiritual development can be inhibited and the separation of your spiritual origin remains.

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